Faith

I had a really bad experience with a certain company today while on my job hunt. I think it is safe to say that this is the first time that I have ever been discriminated for being an immigrant. I will (or will not) write about this incident in another blog post. But that incident really shook me that I wanted to go to church so badly afterwards.

I drove to this church I go to only to find out that the parking lot was full. I thought to myself, why on earth would people be in church at 10 something in the morning on an ordinary weekday?! As I drove closer, I saw that a requiem mass was in progress. I did the sign of the cross and left, whispered a little prayer for the repose of a soul that left this earth.

I spent the rest of the afternoon online looking for more job leads, listing them down and calling them up hoping to get ahold of their respective hiring managers. I managed to bag a couple of interview schedules.

I went back in front of the computer, asking God to take over or at least give me hints because I’m all out of ideas and I don’t know where to look anymore. I don’t know why, but I found myself keying in this institution’s website to drool on their Master’s Programs in International Relations and I somehow clicked on “Employment Opportunities”. Voila! A job opening that I can take a chance for…posted today! I was torn between keeping my hopes up and treating it as just another job opportunity that I can apply for. In the end, I resolved to lifting my heart to God and telling Him, Thy will be done.

Determined to light a candle today, I went back to the church. This time, the parking lot was half full, with cars of parents picking their kids up from the school that the church runs. I went inside and sat on the pew closest to the door as I didn’t want to disturb the choir practicing for the Holy Week. I found myself crying – for forgiveness, for guidance, for complete surrender. I have never felt my faith this strong before. I left (with mascara all over my face) feeling like my lungs have inhaled an air of hope.

I’ll do my part. But He’ll make wonders. I trust in that.

For now, coupled with my perseverance is inspiration that comes in the form of a giant named Um and two intelligent mischiefs named Captain Awesome and Little Princess.

letter made by Little Princess sent by Um this morning